Oh, it's taking so long. I could be wrong, I could be ready...

I'm between ways of thinking about this whole romance/sex thing right now. I'm not sure if staying much the same and not bothering to try anything is the way to go. I honestly can't think of many guys that I would like to get into bed. But there are several on the periphery. But do I really want to start pushing that way? This time of my life would be the time. Then again, do I have the time and energy for that? Or do I just want to go along without it and just sit through fuckload more waiting? Planting a seed is easy for those with skills, but I'm not in that category. I'm not sure I even find enough people attractive to put myself out there.

This brings up the question: is destiny something that will sneak up on you, or must you constantly work for it? HMMMMMMM. At any rate, some personal pattern and energy and paradigm of mine must change.

I tend to overthink most things, but I underthink certain things that, in retrospect, could have led somewhere if I hadn't been so oblivious. The universe gives me what I ask for, but I find it's always more delayed than I would like.



Hey, Universe. Yeah, it's me. You mind hurrying up with that meaningful person for me? I've had a very steep learning curve this year and I would really appreciate some help in this. I know most of what I need and it's hard for me not seeing it around. Maybe if you could just help me open my eyes a bit? Sorry to be a bother! Have a nice eternity!

Sincerely, Tasia.

P.S. Thank you for the cat. She's practically perfect. (Pun not intended.)