Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I don't know what you could possibly expect under this condition.

I am reaching new levels of dysfunction. I feel like something broke in me long long ago, and only now I'm realizing that I can't handle this business of living. All I am is blank. I can't keep up relationships; I don't think I am capable of falling in love with anything or anyone.

It seems impossible that drugs will pull me up.

Christmas scares me.